Ugh

Every time you go away,

it's like losing you all over again.

~

If my heart but a puzzle than the pieces are in disarray

and I am certain I can replace the ones that have blown away.

Weep not of the days gone by

It is in our ability to comprehend at some point the trials and understand on the surface the lessons that reality will bestow upon us. In doing so we will find a new page is written. In all actuality that which brings us together is only complicated by the outside world and what we believe they will find acceptable. In our youth the same experiences in which today are not heightened or seen in the same context as our maturity levels are different. The ache in which we feel in our heart creates and overwhelming desire to bring a measure of reasoning to the moment.
I tried to look at life with a different perspective, but as time life speaks in a truth that rises to the occasion and sheds a different light upon the moment. Our wants, our hunger and our needs are what makes us different from any other creature that walks the earth. With one thought we can trouble the mind, confuse the heart and mislead the soul. The pain unequal to any physical injury as the scars go for years unseen.
I find that at times I am exhausted at merely trying to file accordingly the experiences and place a reasoning to each individual experience. In one sense I feel as if the moment is taking me down the path of a new journey and at other times I want to completely hide behind the world. Trying to find the balance is not easy, to run and hide and yet stand up for oneself.
When you take the experiences and review you find that there are many ways to look at one situation. What I have learned? Why did it happen? What does it leave in me? When will I heal? Or will I heal? There are so many questions and still I don't have all the answers. This for sure I know is that yes the more you look, the more ways you can interpet. I am sure of this, I have felt a love of souls, I allowed it in my heart, one with spirit, one in thought, I have loved and forgotten not. I cannot make anyone see nor make him understand or believe, but this I know is surely true, love had surfaced with the love of you.

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Weep not of the days gone by,
they gave us laughter,
they made us cry.

We danced in the heavens,
we embraced in the night,
our souls entwined while
still in flight.

Weep not of the days gone by,
they gave us laughter,
they made us cry.

We lived, we loved and a
chapter we left of the day
when our hearts had met.

Weep not of the days gone by,
they us laughter,
they made us cry.

I gave him my heart,
I gave him the key,
he took all my loving
and said goodbye to me.

I gave him my dreams,
I gave him my faith,
he took all like a game,
he didn't believe.

and what a chapter it was.

Was it lies that held me,
actions of a lustful soul,
did you ever really care,
or was I simply the fool?

Did you ever sense my
love, did you know I
needed you, or was it
just another game that
lustful people do?

~
In Biology it's all about dissecting!

I took each moment,the ones I

shared with you, dissecting the

heart and soul,to see if you ever

loved me true.

Was your heart cold, did you never
let me in, was it all for nothing and
does the story have an end?

I felt something moving, touch my
heart of love, I thought for sure you
cared and the heaven sent your love.

The days were awfully lonely, I
so wanted you here, I thought
that you wanted me like I wanted
you my dear.

My heart was broken, my soul
cried out for you, I felt like the
angels failed to get my love to
you.

Tears kept on falling, they never
quite went away and so I write
the story to help the heartache
fade.

I wished only but to see you, to
hold your hand but once and
whisper intimately of my most
precious love.

Somethings just aren't meant
to be, and lies a poor foundation
lay, because love can't strengthen
when it tumbles from a foundation

like that of crumbling clay.

~
I remember laughter, I remember
smiles and sometimes I remember
the crossing of the miles.

I believe some common threads
were weaved between us two,

you never sat in judgement and

you make the sky always seem

more blue.

My heart isn't sorry, it knew our
love was real, but I am sure you

were afraid to let your heart feel.

You never said goodbye, you never
said goodbye, you never said goodbye
you just went away.

Oh I cry for the moment, I fear for the
day, I thought that you understood,
the love we both had made.

Sorrow had entered, I felt the signs of
despair, it took seven years of dreams
in the hopes you'd be here.

Foolish is the spirit which thinks life can
change, but you my friend had turned

away from the love I gave.

Weep not of yesterday, no sadness in
the air, for love had entered the heart,

even though you disappeared.

~
When one loves anything is possible,
when two love the reality mixes with
dreams to fuse into a majestic display
of true happiness.
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If only you would have asked,

If only you would have said,

If only you would have trusted,

this would be the beginning

and not the end.

My

heart

aches,

My soul cries out,

we wrote a hell of

a chapter and to this

day I claim, that it had to

be love or I was madly insane.

Different Dreams

I wanted you to see as my heart saw it, hear as my soul spoke it and love and I dreamt love should be and then I realized we were two very different people, with very different dreams.

How many times can a heart be broken,
is it possible to ever heal? When dreams
are all but shattered and the inside is
now revealed.

~

I weep for all that will never be...

~

Ten times a thousand daggers, oh heart! the pain in me,

to build a bridge that now collapses and abandons all my dreams.

Rod Stwart e Amy Belle - I dont´t wanna talk about it

Dreams...the foolish side of our spirit.

The way you look tonight

Sometimes... It takes a view through the heart.

I gave without thinking and it's no surpise, that he took my heart and that's where it lies. I didn't know till he was gone, how much he meant all along. Something was missing, like stars in a sky and a sunless summer day and river gone dry. My heart cried for a very long time, trying to heal the soul and mind. The days long and the nights cold, a reminder of the emptiness and the very black hole. Love, love where have you gone?don't you know my arms are where you belong. Love, love can't you see, how blue the sky when you're with me. Love, love can't you hear, the song of my heart that sings for you dear. I gave without thinking and it's no suprise, that he took my heart and that's where it lies.

Sometimes it takes reality to break the fall.